I feel upset all the time, but hate talking about it?

we have all been there but it sounds like you have low esteem and a bit of depression . i was the exactly the same as you but i felt alone and couldn't tell no one so that led for me to severe depression and anxiety but i went to the doctors and now im getting help with my problems may be you should go to the doctors that way can express your feeling get it off your chest and i told my dad my problems and knew i had depression and he told me to shut up i haven't got anything wrong and months later it got worse and the doctors said i had depression that shut up him that did but you should tell people then they will except that you have some problems and they will support you every step of the way i wish you luck in what ever you do.x